Friday, October 19, 2007
So, I am going to begin this blog, and hope that I continue to put my thoughts on here.
Life....sometimes it just plain sucks. Other times, it couldn't get any better. Ruthie is everything to me. She makes me smile, cry, laugh, and realize that I did something right in my life. I always feel like I am letting her down. I know that I am my worst critic, but I can't seem to see the positive things I do for her. I feel like I am never letting her have her house to herself. We always have kids here, and she isn't happy about it most of the time. She is hitting them, crying, and throwing some fits. I keep hearing it is just a phase, but when is it going to be over. I want her to be happy. I know she is happy, but some days she just has total meltdowns, and it breaks my heart. Gosh, I love her so much. She is asleep on the floor right now. Randall is working tonight, but at least it is his last night in.
Speaking of Randall. He is going through a tough time right now. He finally opened up and talked to me about it. He was so stressed, and of course, he kept it all bottled in. He finally told me, and I told him about how I just went through the same thing. We are both Christians, but not where we want to be on the path. We are working on getting there, but not always together. We have a lot of different views, but things are looking up. I explained to him that he needs to just open his heart up and give all his worries to GOD. I have finally learned to do so, and I hope he does too. Poor guy. He has so much on his plate, but he is such a wonderful father and husband. If you are reading this, please say a prayer for him. Thanks.